Wednesday, November 30, 2011

The One Where I Decide On A 2012 Race Schedule

What up Peeeepppsss!!! 

The DRC Race Schedule is up and I'm signing up again for 2012!! WOOT!! I want to run the new years double in Allen (not a part of DRC) on Dec 31 and jan 1, but we'll see how my month goes and when the deadline is to sign up. 

Otherwise here's my schedule!! :) 

Frigid 5K/10K Saturday, January 7, 2012 

DRC February 5 Mile February 4, 2012 

Trinity River Levee Run - March 3, 2012 at Trammel Crow Park 

Tal Morrison Classic 15K/5K - April 7, 2012 at Winfrey Point 

DRC White Rock-n-Roll 5 Mile and 10 Mile - Saturday, May 5, 2012 at Winfrey Point 

Bloomin' 4 Mile - Saturday, June 2, 2012 at Winfrey Point 

Independence 5K/10 Fun Run - Saturday, July 7, 2012 

Cross Country Relay (3 Legs, 2 Miles each Leg) - Saturday, August 4, 2012 at Norbuck Park 

Breakfast Bash 5 Mile - Saturday, September 1, 2012 at Winfrey Point 

The Loop 15K/5K* - Saturday, October 6, 2012 at Winfrey Point 

DRC Half Marathon and 5K - SUNDAY, November 4, 2012 at Norbuck Park 

A race per month!! WOOT!! And of course I'll run the 5K at the kiddos school fund raiser!! And in May there's a HM in my hometown.... I'm hoping there's a lesser distance as well. :)

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

The One Where It Hurts To Do The Dishes

Things have been hectic here. PTA BSA Birthday Parties Emergencies 

I have been a huge stress ball! Some things are just more than I can take honestly, at least all in one week. I know it's a huge disappointment, I'm not super woman! It was hard for me to find that out too! ;) 

I have been working out at Fit Kick. We do TurboJam and Bootcamp Style workouts!! I am really happy with my body's memory! It remembers my tone-ness and fitness level from the spring when i was lifting more! YAY!! 

Wednesday my triceps hurt so much that it even hurts to wash the dishes!! YAY!! 

I haven't run in a few weeks, but I'm OK with that. I know I can do it and I'll get the miles logged eventually. I'm on a better schedule with working out and like in the spring it didn't matter that I hadn't logged the miles, I was stronger and I ran better because of it. 

I don't plan on doing anything more than a I'm not worried about it. I have all of December to log the miles. I can run that far and I'm not worried. I do want to get a 10K under my belt in 2012. 

Although I've been stressed I've been doing OK in the nutrition department. I haven't eaten myself into oblivion. I'm not losing but that's OK. I still fit into my clothes although not my 2's, but I'm not fretting over that. 

I am looking forward to thanksgiving, because it's the first time in years that my whole family (siblings and kids) have been together! My sister and I have a great menu and I"m excited to have a fun day at her house with all our kids! :) 

Things are better with my's one day at a time.... I know it will take many one days at a time to get there, but we're in it for the long haul. I love him and I know there is purpose in the pain. 

My kiddo has the week off, so this will be fun and filled with laughter! 

I am making dressing and pies for my sisters house. Oh and roasted brussel sprouts. Then I'm going to the black friday deals!! it's tradition, but I don't get up at the crack of dawn. 

Saturday I'll have a run day and a baby shower to attend. 
Then we'll be back to business as usual. 
School, PTA, BSA and Christmas! 

I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving. Eat what you want, don't overdo it, don't feel guilty, stay on track. Make a new tradition of going for a walk after the meal! Bundle up and get out the door! So what you haven't made it to your goal yet, you're moving and you're doing what's best for your life! 

Remember this is a journey, not a destination and stay on the path!! Don't camp out at Thanksgiving Day! :) Gobble Gobble! not Waddle Waddle! 

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Tuesday, November 1, 2011

The One Where I Run With The Littles

Saturday I got up early. Got dressed. Had my coffee. Drank more water. Hubby and kiddo got ready too. Kiddo was running the 5K Race for the first time! At first he was gonna run it with his friends, then his teacher, then his friends, then me. Oh well, he'd run with whomever. 

The race atmosphere was great! I was excited! A friend of mine found me and asked if I'd run with her daughter and I said yes. I was hoping we'd keep a good pace but I was happy to just be running!! :D 

We started off and kept a good pace up to mile one. My running buddy wanted to walk a bit. So we decided we'd run/walk between the mailboxes. We'd run to one mailbox walk to the next one. 

I love this race route. It's awesome. It has just enough challenge and just enough scenery. 

Our Mile One Pace 13:05 

We made it to the turn around where I met up with my kiddo. He was really tired. He was sprinting... and walking and SPRINTING.... and walking. He didn't want to do run club this year so he was not prepared for this distance or the hills. 

He said I just can't run anymore. I said oh yes you can!! So my running buddy and I helped him to do the run walk, only this time we went between the telephone poles. :) 

His walking was reallllly slow. By the time we made it to mile 2 out pace was 14:38

Past mile two it was a struggle for my small people. They were done. And wanted to walk a lot. But I made them stick to the run walk. Our Runs were about 12mm pace, our Walks were around 17mm. 

We got to the bend where we were at the home stretch and I said OK, it's time to give it all we've got!! RUN RUN RUN!! 

My Running Buddy was in front of me and she ran fast!! Walked a bit but with some encouragement from her mom, darted off!! She came in 8th in her age group! 

I was right behind her! I came in 13th in my age group! 

My Kiddo was behind us by a few minutes, he came in 15th in his age group!! 

It wasn't an ideal race but I helped two young runners push through and achieve their goals!! 

My Time was 46:42 3.19 miles 
Official Time: 46.01 

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

The One Where I'm A Ghost

I went to Lukes today. I tried on several shoes, but teetered between saucony and brooks. 

The saucony was a bit narrow and it squeezed me at my big toe joint. I liked it but it literally rubbed me the wrong way. 

I also tried on the Vibrams. I like them. But I didn't have time to do much more than that, we had to be back home to get ready for Scout Camp. 

Soooo, I'm gonna go back and try on both the Vibrams and the New Balance and see how they compare. :D 

For my I'll run in a neutral shoe: The Brooks Ghost 4 

I'm still sore from whatever has been going on with my shoes and my feet this past week, so a real run is out for a few more days. I might not be able to run the 10K next week if I don't heal up in the next 3-4 days. My concern is I'll get a DNF. 

Maybe I can walk some. I dunno. We'll see what happens. First I'll see if I can run Monday or Wednesday. 

Anyway, I'm still gonna get a minimalist shoe and the lady at Luke's said that would be a great option for me. 

She watched me walk. She watched me run. She watched me run on the treadmill with the shoes on; both standing in front of me and watching me in a mirror. Another employee watched me walk and run. Both said I do not over pronate. This is the 6th opinion in two days. So I'm wearing a neutral show now!! 

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

The One Where I Jump To Conclusions

I have come to the conclusion that I'm not built like a runner. I'm just not. 

I don't have long legs. 
I'm not paper thin. 
I could easily get a black-eye from running if it weren't for the "support" of two sports being a size too small to keep the 38 D's DOWN! 
I'm not tall. 
I run slow. 
I have curves - I'm a hippy chic. 

I'm not built like a runner. But I run. 

I have bio-mechanical issues with my non-runner body. 
I over pronate. 
I get super tight if I run more than 6 miles a week. 
I have small feet. 
I have a wide toe-box 
I have a narrow heel. 
Not a narrow foot. 
More like a foot shaped like a V 

I'm not built like a runner. But I run. 

I didn't know any of these things about myself when I started running. I just ran. I had aches and pains, but I see that has a challenge. And I run. I've learned a lot about what I can do and what I can't do. 

Without running being my full time job, I'll probably never run 13.1 or 26.2....walk maybe, but run, probably not. And that's OK. 

Since school let out I have joined a few friends to "run the bridge" MWF. The bridge is 4 miles. Some days I can run the whole way (as in have the time) other days I don't so I run as far as I can. I like running the bridge. I don't like getting up at 4:45. It's summer I want to sleep! 

My plan has been to do Galloway Training. And as plans go....well I haven't stuck to it and I am sore and tight. I get into a zone, I think I "can" run the I "should" run the bridge. Instead of sticking to my plan, which would NOT include a 4 mile run 3-4 times a week. 

And I'm paying for it with my non-runners body. I'm sore and I'm tight. From my feet to my shoulders!!! Instep, Heel, Achilles, Ankle, Calf, Knee, (this idiotic) IT band, Hip, Shoulder. 

Yes it's very true I'm not built like a runner. And it's OK. And I'm still gonna run. These mammaries and short legs and small feet aren't gonna keep me from running. 

I didn't run Friday so Saturday I HAD to run. I needed to run 4.5 miles but ran 5. I had to stop a few times to tape up, to re-tie my shoes, to make adjustments. But honestly it was a good run!! I was sore, but a good sore. 

Monday though, I couldn't run. I walked but running was out of the question. My achilles/ankle hurt, to the point if I ran it would "run up" my leg to my knee. Yup Running was out. That's OK. I walked. 

Tuesday I did a BodyRock/GISG Workout. I went to Target, yes I know, not the bastion of running gear, but still I got a gel arch support and heel slip. I love my zip ties but I took them out and re-laced my shoes. My shoes were snug....tighter in all the right places, but I was able to move my toes!! YAY! But I couldn't run, I'm still sore. 

I think the issue is my my feet!! They are good shoes, but my feet are so......weird.....freakishly small (5.5-6) and squarishly V shaped that my feet move in my shoe, my heel slips, my arch is probably hitting in a different spot each time my foot lands. 

I don't want to get more shoes.....I have a PILE of running shoes at this point. So if I have to get more shoes....I am debating on getting Vibrams in hopes that they will at least FIT my feet. It seems that on amount of overpronation stability is helping my feet, so why bother, honestly. 

As long as I'm gonna spend a ba-jillion more bucks on yet more shoes, I may as well try something else. 

Whatever it is, I'm going to get to the bottom of it. Y'all know me!! 


This body that isn't a running body. 
These feet that are freakishly small. 
These aches and pains. 

They are challenges to be overcome. 
Mountains to be climbed. 
Hurdles to jump. 

And I will overcome, climb, jump and R U N!!

Saturday, June 4, 2011

The One Where The Earth Moves Under My Feet

But the sky didn't tumble down. No it was a hot one yesterday!! 

The alarm went off at 5:30 and I hopped up and got ready. Had my coffee, made me a shake and gathered my things. 

Knee Brace 

You know the essentials. 

I set the GPS to the race location and I was off!! At 6:30 it was already 75 degrees out! It was gonna be a hot day! 

I text to Alex (my oldest) and Jerome (my Dallas Team Leader) that I was on my way. I got down to the race site and parking was a mess!! I found a spot though and headed up to find Jerome. Alex was still on his way, but it was still early. 

As it ended up he got there with plenty of time to spare! YAY!! I picked up his number and his chip timer when I arrived and we were ready to go! 

I was so excited to see him, it had been a while! He's training for www.4deserts.comthis was his first race of the year! I got to run with my son! So so exciting! 

I was a bit nervous because I hadn't been able to run much, I didn't log many miles in May and this was my longest distance race to date. I've run four miles before, but not at White Rock. I didn't know the course or what to expect. 

Because I hadn't run much I set my pace at 14.30, hoping to beat it, but happy to stay there if need be. 

The gun sounded and we were off!! WOO HOO!! We ran at about a 9mm pace for the first 1/2 mile I said to Alex this is too fast we'd better slow down I don't know what's up ahead on this course. So we settled into an sub11 - 11mm pace. We finally came up to a water stop and I was seriously needing water. We continued on at an 11mm pace until the bridge! Oh Meh Gah 

Ummmm..... this thing is like trying to run away from an earthquake!! You have NO idea where you're foot will end up on your next step! Up or Down!! This this is wobbling all over the place, like a hammock!! Oh but it's concrete! And a big batch of craziness, about a tenth of a mile beyond the bridge is the turn around and then the it's up hill for quite a ways. 

This is where I nearly fell apart. I was still feeling off from the bridge and now I have to run uphill. And the water stop isn't for another mile. 

I had to take a few walk breaks just to get over the wobbling feeling! We carried on but at a slower pace. I wanted to go faster but I wanted to have the energy to finish so I slowed down considerably. sub 13 - 13mm. 

Alex was telling me to remember everything I'd taught him....breath normal, correct my posture and form. He was right I was practically bent over, not wonder my feet hurt. Plus I still don't have these zip laces correct. My foot was going numb, either from the tape or the laces. So with every step my foot on the up step would 'wake up' and on the down step 'go numb' quite the weird sensation. 

We made it to the water stop and I was feeling like I could carry on! 

We rounded the corner with 1/2 a mile to go and I was tired and we were on a slope that was very strange to run on. We had to maneuver our way around that and get to the end. 

Alex asked if I wanted to sprint to the end. I told him I could go a bit faster but I couldn't sprint. Mainly because my foot was numb!! At this point nearly completely numb! I was concerned I'd fall down! 

We finished!! Chip time 50:07!! Woo Hooo!!! Better than the hour I though it would take! We got some water and started looking for my friends. We found Jr Miller from The Ticket (a local sport radio broadcaster), Alex got his picture taken with him and we went inside for the results. 

I got a banana and we had an icee pop, ya know the tube kind. Ahhhhh it was super refreshing!! 

I found Jerome and his buddy Chris, I didn't see Amy but she said she left right after she finished. I saw her running though!! :D 

We headed back to the car and then home. It was 88 degrees at 9:30 on my way home! No wonder I was so hot and thirsty!! 

My next DRC race is a 10K July 2. I plan on running the 66 bridge quite a bit and also a training run out at White Rock, so I can conquer that bridge a few times before the race. My plan right now is to walk on it (during the race) if I can't get out there to train on it. 

I will definitely bring water. Probably my liter bottle. I generally drink 24 oz of water when I run 3-4 miles at home on the treadmill, so I'm gonna need more than what the DRC provided yesterday, for sure. Thankfully there was one water stop though!! 

Thankfully there were awesome volunteers!! :D 

I am sore today, but not as sore as I though I'd be. I iced down when I got home, my knees, my foot that was numb. Took a shower and went out for my grocery haul for the week! I love the look of a fridge stuffed with veggies!! 

Next thing to purchase is a fuel belt. Cuz I'll need something to keep me going on longer runs for sure. 

Now it's time to get ready for church; Hope y'all have a fabulous Sunday!! :D

Saturday, May 28, 2011

The One Where We've Been Married 12 Years


I've got my glasses I'm out the door I'm gonna hit something!! 

This SI joint back pain this is beginning to get to me! I was in a lot of pain Friday and we had the kiddos field day. We made it thru!! 

Our job of the day was the 3-legged race. We had fun and it was a good workout. I probably did 300 squats! I had a subway veggie sandwich for lunch, but definitely not enough water. I haven't had enough water in 2-3 days. Friday and Saturday for sure. I'll have to try to make up for it today. But we're packing to go camping and not a lot of access to a nearby potty. I'll be back on track next week, for sure. 

Yesterday was our 12th anniversary, with the kiddo already at the campsite, hubby and I found a place in Dallas to eat. It's a yummy organic, gluten free place!! And it was oh so good!! 

I had smoked salmon with creamy cauliflower mash and wilted spinach. Followed up with coffee and chocolate cake cheesecake. :D 

I've done really well at staying in range. I did a good workout Thursday. I'm hoping there will be a good place to run at the camp site, we'll see. Otherwise I'll try to get the guys out again to ride bikes Tuesday or Wednesday. Plus get my ST sets done. I can feel the fluff coming on! Can't let that happen. 

Here are a few pix of my meals lately and our bike ride the other day! Since I don't know how to name them they will be in no particular order and I'll have to go back and edit. 

Dinner I think Wednesday night 
Hubby - we're headed out on our after dinner bike ride 
kiddo - don't take my picture mom!! 
Veggie Taco Lunch 
Ezekiel Bread with Raspberries 
Morning Liquid 
Check out line!! #12 on our 12th anniversary! 
DINNER!! Smoked salmon...melt in your mouth good!! Creamy Cauliflower Mash with Wilted Spinach!! So So Sooooo Good!! 
Allowed a bit of sugar for this special occasion, this is gluten free chocolate cake with cheesecake filling, chocolate icing and white chocolate shavings! 

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

The One Where I Cook Chicken and Dumplings

1 Yellow Onion
1 T Olive Oil.5-1 Pound Chicken Tenders (cubed)
1 C Chicken Broth1/2 C Milk2 C Mixed Vegetables, Frozen
1 Can Health Valley Cream of Chicken Soup*
1 Can Health Valley Cream of Mushroom Soup*
.5 C Flour
1 Tbsp Poultry Seasoning
1 Tbsp Paprika
1 Tsp Garlic Salt
2-3 Sprigs Fresh Thyme
1-2 Bay Leaves
1 Can 8 Count Grands Biscuits (or make biscuit recipe listed in notes)
In a large stock pot heat olive oil and add diced onion, sweat the onion and add chicken, cook until almost done; then add the next 6 ingredients, bring to a boil and then let simmer while you prepare the biscuits.
In a bowl or plate (I prefer a plate) mix together the flour and seasonings. Coat the biscuits in the flour mixture. Bring the soup back up to boiling. Pinch off dumpling sized portions and drop them into the soup. Be careful for "overboil" during this process, add as many dumplings as desired, turn the heat down to prevent overboil and allow the dumplings to cook for the recommended time on the package/recipe. (Grands 13 minutes/Recipe 10-13 minutes)
For thicker stock 1-2 Tbsp of the flour seasoning mixture to make a Roux and add to the soup.
Serve and Enjoy!

Monday, January 24, 2011

The One Where I Run The Hot Chocolate Race

I picked My #1 Donut up around 7AM and then headed out for our Addison Adventure. It was cold and rainy and hard to see and I got lost a couple of times but we MADE it there!!

Found the race site and then found our Spark Peeps!! Jerome, Amy, Nancy, Andrea, Lynette, Michelene,Susie, Donut, Laurie (?), a few others who's name escapes me at the moment.

We dropped all our stuff off with Susie AKA Donut and found our place at the start. I was gonna run with Lynette.....well for as long as I could!

Around the 1/2 mile mark my right shoe came untied and I had to stop, I lost Lynette from there but kept going. The first few miles with her though I was running a 9mm!! And it didn't feel too fast or like I was gonna pass out! But after I stopped to tie my shoe I was a bit slower. Down to my normal 11mm pace. I made it over the first hill and was feeling good! No pain no need to adjust. I felt good!! YAY!

I got down the hill at a bit of a quicker pace and could hear the cheers of the lady who was there with her own police detail! She'd already made it to the turn around!

I made it to the turn around in about 18-19 minutes and I was feeling good! Then the that darned hill was in my face again! I told myself "Commit to the hill!" And I would count off 10-20 seconds and then look up to see how far I had to go! LOL Just how much more commitment would this take!

After that is was GRAVY! Cuz the turn to the home stretch was next! I did experience a bit of chaffing. I forgot to wear a t-shirt instead of sleeveless, but other than that, I felt great!

I'm sore, but not in pain. YAY!!!!

I finished by the RunKeeper 35.17 by the official time 35.50. Because Susie Donut, let me race with her bib, all the stats are under her name. Hmmmmmm....just looked up the stats. There aren't any for the bib number. Odd.

In my age group I would have finished 30th out of 65! WOOT!! But under her age group I was 38/75!! COOL!

Lynette/Susie found me at the finish and we waited for the others! :D We met back up inside, got out hot chocolate and ate yummy donuts that Susie made for our fabulous Spark Team!!

We hung out. We took Pictures. We had a great time!! Can't wait for next month!!

The One Where I Make a 2011 Race Plan

Jan 15th - Hot Chocolate 5K DONE!! 35:17 Not a PR, but the same time as 11.2010
Feb 5th - DRC 5K
March 27th - Rock -n- Roll HM - maybe...BIG Maybe...I'm thinking about the relay though
or April 2 - DRC 5 Mile Run
June 4th - DRC Bloomin 4 Mile
July 2nd - DRC Independence 10K
August 6th - DRC Cross Country Relay
September 3rd - DRC 5 Mile Breakfast Bash
October 1st - DRC The Loop 15K
November 5th - Husky Run Run
December 4th - White Rock Half Marathon 13.1

Starting off with Spark Your Way to a 10K Training. My goal is to get to a sub-11 pace this year. I'm not trying to set any land speed records! LOL

The One Where I Tell You To Get Off The Hook!

There were a few mentions yesterday about some sparkers who feel at times they can't take the trash out, how it builds up and makes it hard for them to move around.

I've had that experience. I know how that feels. So much piled up, so much junk, garbage, and clutter. I didn't have the Cleavers for parents. I've been overwhelmed by the piles and the crud.

I read a book about health and nutrition. And while I don't agree completely with the authors "style" of health and nutrition, I was able to "eat the meat and spit out the bones" per se.

There is an exercise he mentions about forgiveness. Hold on!! I know what you're thinking.....breath in and out for a moment. Forgiveness isn't about letting someone off the hook. It isn't about lack of accountability or responsibility. Its about hook availability!

When we fail to forgive we are on the hook. We are holding on for dear life. We hold onto yesterday, three days ago, 5 years ago, 13 years ago, 35 years ago. If we're holding onto the hook then surely we're holding then responsible. Right? That would be the logic in that.

Let me tell you something, the hook means you're being eaten for dinner, friends! The only person who is being eaten (alive) is you! The other person is carrying on with their life having no thought about what they have done. (trust me on this one.....i could write a book of stories)

Holding onto the past is like drinking poison in hopes that it will kill your enemy! It doesn't kill only kills you. With poor health, depression, emotional eating......just fill in the blank. My blank was drinking and generally a destructive life. Who was I hurting? Not the offenders, that's for sure!

ANYWAY! Back to the hook. When you get off the hook, you allow for hook availability. Whether you see it materialize in your lifetime or not, the hook is available now for others. You stop being dinner. You stop being in a tug of war with the hook. You stop being in the holding pattern.

This Forgiveness Exercise was very helpful for me in leaving the past where it belongs.

****NOTE**** If you are offended by "religion" by the terms like prayer or God, etc. I encourage you to stop reading now.

Forgiveness Exercise
From Walk Thru The Bible Ministries

Step 1: Take a sheet of paper and write down the name of the person you need to forgive at the top. (one person per paper)

Step 2: Write down the things that person did to cause you pain. I can tell you from experience that once you start remembering those things, your emotions will start to rise to the surface, but that’s okay. That’s just a sign you haven’t forgiven them yet.

Step 3: Once your list is complete, you need to look at each person’s name and say “I forgive you for…..,” and say out loud what they did to hurt you.

Step 4: Then ask God to cleanse you of your past unforgiveness, bitterness and/or resentment. By the time you’ve reached this step, you’ll be heading down the road to recovery. After you’ve completed your list, you should cut up the paper or burn it.

Its not a cure-all. Its just a resource that has helped me thru alot of junk. I had junk my friends. Now I'm down to a managable pile of clutter, but its getting smaller. Occassionally I have to go thru this exercise again, I generally burn mine. Its more ceremonial to me. I watch the paper burn, mourn the loss of that event, that relationship, that crutch I was using to hold me back. And I move on.

On another "religious" type of note: CS Lewis said something incredible well he said alot of incredible things, but this one stuck with me a long time ago.

Anything that's not dead in your life can't be raised up!

Have a super Tuesday!! :D

The One Where I Ask Have You Lost Your Trash Can (or Mind)?

I've thought alot about this subject, I've thought alot about what to title such an blogging adventure. So while I sit here with my knee propped up, with an ice pack atop it. Lets begin.

Odd title I'll admit, but where is your trash can and where was it before? Is your kitchen trash can under the sink? near the stove? Have you ever moved your trash can to a new location? Mine for instance it at the end of the island. Occassionaly I move it next to the sink depending on what I'm preparing. If I'm peeling alot of veggies, I'll move it near the sink. Or when I've been handling chicken.

Sometimes I forget and leave the trash can by the sink, then head to the end of the island and remember, oh yeah! I moved it. I don't discard the trash on the floor where the can used to be. I dispose of it in the proper place. It would certainly get messy if I did that wouldn't it? Instead of making a new habit of discarding trash in the can near the sink, if I discarded the trash onto the floor where the can used to be located?

But we're people, right, capable of learning new habits. right? So what is all this talk of trash cans and their location?

Its simple really. You can remember that you've moved the location of the trash can and dispose of trash properly. Even when you (or I) forget, you head back into the correct direction, right?

Its the same with a healthy lifestyle. You've moved the location of your today and your future. So what if occassionally you forget. Just turn back toward the new location.

I've seen so many Spark Friends become discouraged lately. Forgetting their location. I've seen so many say they don't know how to get back. But I say to that if you can remember the new location of a trash can, you can remember how to Spark!

I have to remember to count out chips and not eat out of the bag.

I have to remember to look up nutritional information before I order my food.

I have to remember when I drink enough water, I feel alot better.

I have to remember to start with the serving size. If I'm still hungry make another sensible choice.

One piece of (or even the whole bag) __________ isn't the end of my journey.

I have to remember the scale is not a reflection of who I am, but a snapshot of a location on the journey.

SparkFriends, I ask you today......where is your trash can?

...And George Lasso's The Moon

If you haven't seen It's A Wonderful Life, I encourage you to. I saw it repeatedly while at the hospital giving birth to my oldest son, back in the days of no cable! He was born over Christmas. When I say over Christmas; I mean a days worth of labor

PBS was the only station that was on 24 hours because they played that movie back to back from Christmas Eve to Midnight Christmas Day. I've seen the move. And even so, I really like it.

It's a great story. One where it reminds us of how many lives we touch. How we've changed them and they've changed us. How different the world would be if it weren't for the people we've bumped into or rubbed shoulders with throughout our life.

One of my favorite parts is where George and Mary are walking home after the dance, singing "Buffalo Gals." He's telling her about his goals to leave the dust behind him from this old town and travel the world; she's admiring an old abandoned house that she romanticizes over, throws a rock at what's left of the windows and makes a wish.

He says, in the tune of Buffalo Gals "What'd you wish for when you threw that rock?"

She doesn't say.

He says: What is it you want, Mary? What do you want? You want the moon? Just say the word and I'll throw a lasso around it and pull it down. Hey. That's a pretty good idea. I'll give you the moon, Mary.

She says: I'll take it. Then what?

He says: Well, then you can swallow it, and it'll all dissolve, see... and the moonbeams would shoot out of your fingers and your toes and the ends of your hair... am I talking too much?

Am I talking too much? Hmmmmm.....

People talk too much don't they. Say too much. Say the wrong things. Hurtful things more times than good things. At least that's how it's been a lot of my life. I didn't grow up in the Bailey household. George and Mary weren't my parents. I think I would have liked that though. It seems as though they stuck together, worked things out, had a great community, had a good support system, had a guardian angel.

I didn't have those things, those people. A lot of my life I've experienced what I term "the wagging of tongues." Bad words, lack of encouragement. The message I received was, I'm too weak, I'm not good enough, I'm not......enough. This isn't for me, that isn't for me, I can't do this. Not only from my parents but from others. I began to be conditioned to think negatively about myself and about others. I began to be fearful about everything. Scared to try, Scared to fail. Scared to succeed, really.

After talking with a few of my friends over the past few days...weeks. It seems there's alot of tongue wagging going on. Maybe a lot of fear. Living in the fear bubble. Making what is said real; ingesting it and living as though the words are true about you and/or your circumstance.

It's like you've lasso'd the moon (words) and swallowed it....and it's all dissolve, see... and the moonbeams (words) would shoot out of your fingers and your toes and the ends of your hair...

I did that. I swallowed the words and I made them real. And I lived out my life, my living and breathing and parenting and working and fellowshipping as though the words were real.

A sweet friend asked me recently, have you always been this confident. I said no, not by a long shot.

I don't know when I made the switch; when I stopped swallowing the words. I know it was a process of cancelling the negative with the positive. In showing myself that I'm not those words, others thoughts or actions, I became more positive each day, more confident in myself. I had to "raise my deserve level".

You aren't others words, thoughts or actions either. You can make the choice today to stop swallowing the words. Even if you're plate is full, you don't have to eat it. Even if you take a bite, you can spit it out. Even if you ingest half the plate, guess what, you don't have to finish it!

Even if George Lasso's The Moon, you don't have to swallow it!

Who's Driving Your Wagon?

Repost from Spark:

I met Coach Nancy at the bridge today, we had a great time, walking and talking. We talked more than we walked. It was a four mile walk, a four hour talk.

Having someone like minded gave me an opportunity to bounce alot of my thoughts off her and honestly I think we both have hours of blog material now! LOL And this is one of them....but I got to thinking about this particular part of our conversation and I hope it translates as well into blog as it did in person.

I hear the term or phrase: I fell off the wagon. I'm getting on the wagon. While I understand what the phrase means and that it applies to other aspects of life issues, I'm will only be discussing it today in terms of Spark People.

To get there I want to sing a little song, some of you may know it and some of you may not. It's kind of a strange song to make the point but I hope it will make sense.

Time Warp - Rocky Horror Picture Show

It's just a jump to the left
And then a step to the right
Put your hands on your hips
And bend your knees in time
But its the pelvic thrust, that really drives you insane
Let's do the Time Warp Again!

I equate the Time Warp to being "on or off the wagon". And if it's a wagon, and you're ON the wagon, who's driving it? You? And if not you then who? Are the horses out of control? Hmmmmm....that's a foder for an whole other blog....back to this one.

If getting on the wagon is a jump to the left
And getting off the wagon is a step to your right
And while your off the wagon you put your hands on your hips (or calories) and bend your knees (only exercise when I feeeeeeeeeel like it)
I think the pelvic thrust that drives you insane is binge eating and guilt.

Are you really moving? Isn't it just a series of "a jump to the left and a step to the right"? How are you moving forward with all the side stepping?

And again I ask you WHO is driving the wagon?

At some point in this Spark Journey, you have to decide to take the reigns, you have to do the work, you have to stop trying to fill the hole, the void, the abyss, the loneliness, the "someday syndrome", the I'll be happy when thoughts, with food, with bad food or good for you food, alcohol, whatever, you fill in your own blank (destructive behavior).

Until you stop being content (and who are we kidding, you're not content) with riding in the wagon, getting off and getting on and getting off and getting on...

Until you become the DRIVER (taking control of your life) and not the PASSENGER (blame anything else for "perceived failure") you will not be successful. I said it. You're right! This won't work.

Until you take the reigns, Until you make the choices: water and fuel, Until you use the Spark Tools, Until you get off the couch and put on the shoes. You're not moving forward. You're not the driver of the wagon.

Are you ready to grab the reigns?

Don't just think you are.
KNOW you are.
Don't just TRY.

Food and Running and Other Stuff

I need to dust this place off! I need to post some race reports and get to the heart of the matter around here again!

I started this blog over the summer and somehow not it's winter!

I've trained, I've run, I've turned vegetarian and now looking into a gluten free lifestyle as well.
I've maintained my weight loss over a year!! But I'm looking to drop 10 more pounds.

I have quilt projects and recipes and pictures and spark blogs I should transfer as well! :D

Now, where's my swiffer!?